Previously...

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(I feel so stupid when I can't do stuff&things in general but when I can't do them with I feel a complete idiot...) 

Ok. So...

-Mac is dead... For real this time. I knew it could happen but I'm sad. I feel like in the scene of walking dead when Rick says "we are all infected". Super shock but with resignation.

-Super cold wind days in London. My left knee is killing me. I always risk to fly away!

-Work is ok but I need to find another one... The thought to put myself to this research again kills me. I already feel frustrated.

-I feel alone. Morrissey was right.

-Insomnia

-Japanese people that give tips.

-I'm so tired to eat rice & eggs.

-Black clouds by Morrissey

-I wrote an email... A very important email... I'm so nervous!!

-I hate banks! I'm so tired of this shit!

-I should stop to ask to myself WHY I dream bacon...

-Norman Reedus

-Waking Dead #136 2,20£+super fatty caramel/chocolate cake (thank you caffè nero ❤️)

-Sometimes something sweet & unexpected can happen...

-Rain

-Skype's conversations

-Walking Dead's hoodie+AWESOME hoodie+new shoes+skittles=❤️

-I will never pay something early. Never again!!

-Paul Banks

-Filth & Stretch

-I'm so excited to see the first prints. It must be it... It MUST be!

The second where Everything began to move

--Yesterday I really want to write something because actually something BIG happened in these days but all the tiredness that I accumulated in past 10 days came all together on my weak body & I fell. I bought a new phone. My really first phone that I can say it is really mine! I always had the other's garbage. An Iphone. I thought so much before buy it. Now it is my phone. We are still knowning each other. Sometimes it scares me because I still don't know how it fuctions or its sounds. Sometimes I don't get it. Money that goes out & money that comes in. Now is the time to save. Even if there is a little voice in my head that continues to yell "'sti cazzi! Go & buy a pair of Red Wing!!". This time I'll follow the brain. Finally I went to the art gallery in Brick Lane & I did it right. My work values something. I felt so proud. I felt supported. Finally. Finally the things will take the right way. My work will be repayed. The Odissey that Norman Reedus brings will kill me but I just have to say to him Thank You. Someone says the credit id all mine but I know it is thanks to The Muse if I did what I did. Now the things are becoming serious. When I went outside I smiled. A part of me was alerted... nothing is semple & good as it seems. I know. I'm not a fool. I'll be careful. A real studio! Wow! I put my hopes in that machine! Walking Dead #136 Wed 14th January. Welcome to the Byron Burger Club! I FINALLY did the grocery shopping! Yeah! I spend a lot of money! Actually they aren't a lot of money but more that usual. See you nxt month Tesco! Now it is the moment to do the things right. I've got Hope in my right hand & my Heart in the left hand & in my Heart I've got Him & my Passion. Booyah!

Happy Birthday Badass!

--10 of lines,dead pens,5+4 Reedus, japanese food (eaten & served),not enough sleep,unconfortabe positions,no table,Walking Dead season 1-3,tiredness,worries,Guinness,NYE,not enough food,cold,lost   occasions,runs,not enough company,Interpol & Paul Banks,sleep dressed,loud music in my ears,Doctor Who Proms 2010-I am The Doctor.mp3,Special Converse,not enough money,walks in the night,leather gloves around my fists in my pocket,((impossible desires)),anxiety,counts,salami & prosciutto,sales,black cats,veg bacon,sad Christmas,Doctor Who Christmas Special,sunny days but super windy,caffè nero's skype sessions,new meeting ((no hopes about it)),sad frozen pizzas,peanut butter,up & down,Moz.Now the reality is back.No more distraction.No more life.Just survive.Thank you Norman for the distraction & the ((immaginary)) support.


This artwork was an odissey. I worked 10 nights in a very unconfortable position using staedler's lovely pens in my little room in London on it in company of Walking Dead,black cats & foxes drived by rush & by passion but I did it because for me was important. Because today is @bigbaldhead ' birthday & I would to celebrate it.I would to celebrate him & what he inspires me.I don't know if he will ever see it but this is my gift for him.
https://www.flickr.com/photos/emptiness_replace_my_soul/16031319957/

(this is what I wrote on Flickr but it's not what I really want to say... unfortunately the words just disappeared in the days like ink on a wet paper. I always lost my words...)